1WW

I have arrived in the home stretch... the 1ww! This cycle has been a little weird - Okay, a lot weird.

For starters, I started checking my cervix this cycle (it's not as weird or gross as I thought it would be)... I actually think it's facinating albeit confusing at times. Like now... I thought after I Oed, that it would close up - not with my quirky cervix. It decides to stay open, inspite of what the the books say is normal (is this the cause of my IF problems... I do not know. So I shall google until I am satisfied... or clinicly insane - whichever comes first.)

Secondly, this is an abnormally long cycle. Since losing 80 pounds - my cycles have evened out around a comfortable 31-33 day cycle... this one seems to be around 34-36. (I had a hard time guessing my O day this cycle). It doesn't bother me (much). I guess we will see next cycle.

Lastly, now that I'm in the 1ww - Rather than finding myself googling every symptom I feel at the given moment, I find myself perfectly normal. Feeling great, actually! Any normal person would think nothing of it, but me I find it as a cause to worry. Did I miss something this cycle? I thought I Oed, but I could have missed it. What if I didn't O this cycle? The almighty google tells me that sometimes no symptoms can be a symptom, so am I pg?

So I guess I'm in for a wild and crazy week. Let's home the men in white jumpsuits don't come for me this cycle - I already feel like I'm loosing it.